battling insufficiency

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am I capable?

am I good enough?

am I qualified?

 

we all see ways that we don't quite measure up. 

 

how many times do we ask ourselves these questions?

 

I feel like I have been in a battle with feeling insufficient almost every step of every position I have been placed in. I'm shaking and paranoid. I feel not ready. I let this paralyze me. 

It's the reason I wouldn't try something --

because I don't feel 

good enough.

successful enough.

old enough. 

secure enough.

pretty enough.

eloquent enough. 

well-liked enough.

educated enough. 

etc.

etc.

etc. 

 

It's like there is always some bar to cross, and we just don't measure up.

And even if we do cross a certain bar, it seems like there is always another one.

 

Has anyone ever been there?

 

In studying and praying about this very thing in my own life, I had a thought that was so clear -- 

 

Good enough doesn't exist. 

 

It kind of rocked me.

All of this constant effort to be something worthwhile or notable became air. 

There is no qualification or striving that we put forth that meets the expectation. 

 

Because the expectation will always be perfection, and we are incapable of it. 

 

So we are never qualified, we are incapable of being qualified. 

 

We hear:

"God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called."

 

We tend to focus on the second half to encourage us. When I see the first part stand out -- that there is no one qualified to call on. 

 

God doesn't call the qualified because no one is qualified. 

 

Read this scripture with me (don't just skip over it, I know I do that sometimes, but seriously read it):

 

"3 And you show that you are a letter from Christ delivered by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

4 Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. 5 Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, 6 who has made us sufficient to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life."

2 Corinthians 3:3-6

enough said, dude.

 

"The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me;
    your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever.
    Do not forsake the work of your hands."

Psalm 138:8

 

We don't fulfill our purpose, He does. Is that nuts?

 

"I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."

John 15:5

 

even MOSES was like “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.” Exodus 4:10

 

NOTHING. we can do noooothing of substance without Him. what???

 

You could be like, "wow allison what an encouraging message because now I feel worthless" 

BUT this is not the end of the story (praise God)

 

We aren't good enough because we will never ever attain perfection. 

That's why we needed qualification. 

Jesus came as that perfection to be our qualification. 

 

So now it's not our worthiness that meets the mark, it's His. 

 

Now let's get real:

Stop living your life trying to meet a mark.

Stop living your life trying to please the people around you.

Stop trying to be something else for the acceptance of others.

Stop wasting your life in anxiousness of whether you're qualified for a certain position/role/job/etc. 

You are who you were created to be. 

With your gifts, appearance, and talents. 

To accomplish the purpose that He will establish through you.

It won't be based on your worth or capabilities. 

It never will.

 

Rest in the fact that you are His and He is sovereign.