SPOTLIGHT - to learn Jesus

About the Spotlight Writer

Hi! I’m Aspen and I’m from the beautiful state of Oregon. I am currently living in Dallas, TX and am in nursing school at Baylor University. I love Jesus and the goal He has set before me to be His hands and feet in action on this earth. I cannot wait to use the gifts I have been given to bless others the way Jesus did on earth and still does today.

Psalm 119:105 -Your word is a lamp to my feet
And a light to my path.

I grew up in a Christian home and what one may describe as the “American Dream” family. I have one brother and one sister… and I am the baby. Everything was always right in the world growing up. Of course, my family had its share of difficulties just like any other family, but we always relied on Christ to guide us. When I was 4 years old, my dad sat down with me on the floor and led me to Christ. I knew who Jesus was and that He loved me very much, but I mostly wanted to believe because my daddy did. I grew up with this mentality for most of my life… until I was dropped off at college.

There is truly nothing in life that I have yet experienced like being alone on your first day after being dropped off in a new state at college. There is so much freedom to do anything and everything you could possibly imagine. Luckily, I grew up with parents who raised me to think before I act, so I was pretty smart about not doing anything crazy with my freedom. The thing that hit me the most was the feeling of loneliness. For the first time in my life I had to decide what I was going to do with the feeling of being all on my own without a family to rely on and talk to. In the background, there was this faint voice telling me to turn to Jesus… but what could Jesus do for me when He was so far away? He could not be present with me while I’m sitting in a brand-new apartment by myself. Sure, I could pray and recite verses over and over but how is that going to make me feel less lonely? How will I go about my days and figure out where my life should go?

That’s when I decided it is time for me to learn Jesus… not just believe because my family does, but really truly learn who this God is who has been in my heart since I was 4 years old. I picked up my little bible that I had and just started reading it. I had always known God’s word but I never TRULY believed it or relied on it like I started to when I got to college. This sparked a relationship with my absolute best friend, sidekick, peacemaker, and the most loving father a girl could imagine. College changed me. I started seeking out Jesus and everything else was put into place. I started to rely on His words and I knew that I no longer would just think of them as simply “advice”. This is because all of His words in the Bible come with actions. He will be so present in your life if you are faithful to Him and listen to what He is trying to tell you… and for the first time I did!

Remember when I said, “what could Jesus do for me when He was so far away?” This is another lesson I learned… He isn’t! He can be right beside you whether you are in a third world country without cellphone service, in the middle of nowhere or right in the comfort of your home. He is there! I learned that Jesus wants us to call out to Him, and as soon as we do, He will come running to us… RUNNING! The King of the World will come running to you no matter what situation you are in. He loves you so much and will leave the 99, break chains, tear down walls… He is there. The problem with most of us is that we don’t call out to Him and expect Him to just be there. Our God is a God who desires to be wanted by us and have a relationship with us. Honestly, I think He is pretty deserving of that. Yes, He will draw near to you, but you have to show Him that you are willing to listen and drop everything else in your life that is distracting you. Believe me… it is worth it!

What I think is the most beautiful is that every story is different. Some of the most beautiful and God-loving people I have met started out with a much different story than mine. These people did not know Jesus and grow up seeking Him out. But, some crazy event happened where they came to know Him and they were never the same. These stories are absolutely beautiful to me because in those moments, they have to decide on their own to choose God. For me I had a slow transition into really seeking Him out, but these people I know drop everything in one moment and follow Him… beautiful. The most important thing we can do in our lives is find that moment. Find that time when you decide to give up everything you knew, your selfish ways, and follow Him with all your heart… rely on Him. The greatest thing I know is that when everything and everyone else fails you… you can be dependent on Christ. The King of the whole World LOVES you with an unending love, and there is absolutely nothing you can do to discontinue this love.